About two years ago, I was a wreck. What I thought should’ve been one of the most satisfying times of my life, wasn’t. I’d just become a professional bodybuilder. A goal I’d devoted myself to for three long years. During those three years, there were two things I thought about most. In fact, I was overly obsessed with ’em. My life. My thoughts. My days. My nights. They all consisted of these two things.
Something was wrong with me. I needed to make some changes; however, I wasn’t ready to let go. My Spirit and my flesh were battling it out! Around this time, I stumbled upon, or better stated, God directed my attention to, a post on Instagram from Revelation Wellness. I went to their website. I browsed their profile. I was drawn to their approach, using fitness as a tool to share the good, gospel message; however, I wasn’t ready to receive it. I brushed it off. That works for them. It wouldn’t work for me… Fitness was my way of manipulating my body. It didn’t have nothing to do with the gospel.
Months passed and my two obsessions were weighing me down. I couldn’t take it any more. I was out of control. I literally felt as if I was going crazy. The way in which I was behaving wasn’t normal. Well, I take that back. Actually, considering the circumstances (not eating enough and exercising way too much), my behavior (binge eating) was normal; however, I wasn’t living in freedom.
The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life. John 10:10
If you’re like me, you’ve never considered yourself as the thief discussed in this scripture. However, I was (am) the thief. I was allowing my obsession with food and my body to steal, kill, and destroy my freedom, and essentially my joy. While the women of Revelation Wellness weren’t ripped and shredded, promoting six pack abs and hardcore workouts, they were all overflowing with joy. While joy was exactly what I desperately craved, I wasn’t excited to give up the body I’d worked so hard to attain. Hmmmm, joy or the “perfect” body? I was torn.
Whatever is obtained in the flesh, will require the flesh to sustain it. Whatever is obtained by the Spirit, our gracious Father will sustain.
I’d spent many, many years building this body of mine; however, my flesh was failing me. It was growing tired and weary. I knew I wouldn’t be able to maintain this level of fitness and food restriction for a lifetime. I let go. I surrendered. I must be honest with you. It’s an ongoing battle. Surrendering isn’t a one and done type deal. Each day, it’s a lying down of my cross and following The One. Choosing to do things His way. Not my own.
Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. John 15:5
Apart from God we can do nothing; NO-THING. Yet knowing this, we still embark upon our wellness journey alone. We fail to include God in the process. Instead of seeking Him first. We turn to Google instead. You can continue to search the Google god for the latest and greatest weight loss plans but I guarantee none of ’em will produce lasting results. Jesus is the missing link. Like me, you know how to lose weight. You know whole foods are a better than processed foods. You know exercise is good for you. Knowing all these things, you still don’t do ’em. Why? Because your mind is in need of a transformation. You won’t find that type of transformation online. The Google god ain’t got nothing on our creator God.
Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. Romans 12:2
//Have you been trying to lose weight on your own to no avail? Where do you need God’s help? If you feel inclined, please share with me in the comments below, or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org, I would love to be praying with you.
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